Saturday July 19, 2003

~ (Memory Dump) ~

I’ve been trying to do this bible study for awhile now and I just can’t concentrate enough to get it finished. *sigh* It’s been mad crazy and I have not been making enough time for God lately. Shame on me. My viewpoint is unhooked and everything is getting all fuzzy and “relative”… I noticed my viewpoint having an internal war with this anime I was watching. “Chobits”… The point / moral of the story is that everyone should seek out their own happiness. While that appeals to my emotions, the logical & cynic within me says, So what?? I guess this mental unhinging is also what’s going on in my spiritual life… my dad has been talking to me lately and I know he wants the best for me… but all he can only point me toward worldly things… things that in the end, mean nothing… It’s nice to have money… but money is meaningless without love… I’m sure many people would agree, it’s the application of this idea to your life that drives people in circles. God’s got a reason, a purpose for these things. And I think, it’s out of my reach. I’ve recently gotten into a car accident and that makes things complicated… repairs, insurance, work… These are things that can consume me and sap the life out of me. For those who are reading, just one request. Pray for me? Church, Accident, Family Responsiblities, Peace and patching things up between me and God.

Father, help. May your will be done. I ask this in the name of my redeemer, Jesus. Amen.