Friday January 21, 2005

Tis better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.

All’s fair in love and war.

The winners write the history books.

Respect your elders.

Question authority.

There’s a thin line between love and hate.

Insanity is doing the exact same actions and expecting a different result each time.

True wisdom is knowing that one knows nothing.

Never go to sleep with dirty dishes in the sink.

Even a fool seems wise… until he opens his mouth.

Love is action, not an emotion.

I do not fear my enemies, they may only take my life. I fear my friends, they may make my life not worth living…

==New Year’s resolution==

People keep asking me about my resolutions… so after much deliberation in the shower. I’ve finally figured out why I don’t make resolutions. Because I see them as goals and I don’t think I can do them in 1 year anyway….

Love My God
Love My Neighbor

 (in context)

== Every joke contains some truth… ==

Pissing off the ladies
(AKA Shortening Your Potential Lifespan)

Actually answer the question, “Does this dress make me look fat?”

When she’s angry or moody, blame it on PMS.

Talk about what your ex’s did / did not do. to her. all the time.

Insinuate that she’s anything less than independent.

Comment on her body, when she’s gone through painstaking lengths to get dressed to the nines.

Leave the toilet seat up. (all the time)

Notice something is wrong and pretend everything is just fine.

Discount female intuition.

Constantly switch between acting like a perfect gentleman and a total jerk.

When you “accidentally” upset her, note what you did… and repeat it again, intentionally after everything is calm again.

\\o// Random Feedback \\o//
Why is does everyone seem to post young-buck pictures of themselves?

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Wednesday January 19, 2005

Random thoughts about a soul-less cup of coffee…

I was making my coffee today and some strange thoughts came to mind. I know that Philadelphia tap is “hard water” meaning it contains minerals in the water that make it harder for you to dissolve (?solutes into solution? chem isn’t my favorite subject…) things into it… hence problems with doing your laundry and stuff like that. anyway, I digress. I was wondering if there was something peculiar about how I must make my cup of coffee.

For my “soul-less” cup of coffee, you mix together instant coffee, non-dairy creamer and some honey. Having extensive experience (2 summers) working at Dunkin’ Donuts, I would consider myself well-versed in the art of coffee making. (aka read the instruction manual) For a cup of normal D&D coffee: add sugar first, pour in coffee to dissolve the sugar leaving room for creamer, then add creamer. Voila! Hot, steaming caffeine hit on the go~

However… this method doesn’t seem to work very well when using instant coffee, honey & non-dairy creamer. When I add the ingredients for my soul-less coffee in the same manner, I always get these appalling white specks floating in my drink. It’s like what happens when you pour spoiled/curdled half&half into coffee… (think little-cheese-flake-things but, not quite chunks) I’d have to say, while my sense of taste is not really offended by these little flakes, it bothers my visuals and my mind isn’t exactly happy that I am drinking this looks-like-spoiled-dairy-product-cheese-but-isn’t-really.

So by experimenting/ trial & error, I’ve found that the following sequence works better: Add non-dairy creamer & honey first, then finish with instant coffee. No floating white stuff swirling in my cup.

Anyone have any idea as to what kind of chemical reaction was avoided to make my soul-less coffee look good? 😀 😀

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Monday January 17, 2005

Happy B-day, Mr. King, hope you’re jamming with Abraham, David… and all those cool people. Chilling in the light of the Son. Raising a ruckus with the angels. Rest in (relative) peace…

Dad, I’m working today, as you well know. I’m glad the streets are empty so I had a cool commute today, very relaxing to be able to cruise at 20 ~ 45 mph at my leisure. I’d like to pray for those who are working today, that they may shine your light into their workplaces, bringing glory to you. Yeah, that means me too… I’d also like to pray for those who have a holiday today, I pray that they may make good use of this time to build up relationships, to take care of their temple, to live out your truth, or to chill out in your loving presence. Whatever we may do, whatever we are going through, may Your wonderous and perfect will be done in our lives. I ask this in the one name in whom I can hope, Jesus. Amen.

== == ==

This poem slammed me up, down and sideways. So… I figured I’d share. I’m not there yet either, but I know a worthy challenge when I see one. I hope to see you & welcome you into the fellowship too…

Fellowship of the Unashamed

I’m a part of those who keep the commandments of God and have the faith of Jesus — the fellowship of the unashamed.
I have Holy Spirit power.
The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made.
I’m a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still.

My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure. I’m finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, cheap living, and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity.
I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded.
I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way rough, my companions few, my Guide reliable, my mission clear.
I cannot be bought, deluded, or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won’t give up, shut up, or let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preached up for the cause of Christ.
I am a disciple of Jesus.
I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me.

And when He comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me — my banner will be clear!

– (Author unknown)

Reportedly written by a young African pastor who tacked this message to the wall of his house. It was later discovered by those who entered his home after he was martyred. (Romans 1:16)

== Prayer request ==

My sister is going through a time of transition right now. I would like people to pray for her safety, her work situation, her health, her attitude and her heart. I can’t give much more detail than that, but then again, He knows. Just lift it up if you would please…

== Tuesday: Addiumumin… ==

Car troubles again today. God, you wanted me to take the bus again. You wanted me to trust you again, huh? Well, the timing of the car going crappy was perfect, I had just enough time to drop off the car at the shop and then catch two buses and make it in to work with minutes to spare. Lots of things on my mind, thoughts and plans swirling in my head, but unless it is in your will, Lord, all this is useless. What is your will? How shall I use my time and resources? I see a fork in the road ahead… neither side looks too promising, so I will try not to depend upon my wisdom, but more upon how you are moving. You did promise persecution if I was to follow you. I am just a servant, where shall I serve? where will my life be poured out? still working on crucifying that sinful nature, still grasping onto your mercy and grace… let me, let you… be God. Dad, may your will be done in my life. In Jesus name, Amen.

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Friday January 14, 2005

== Endangered species: The Christian Man ==

And then the sword slices inward…

I have heard alot from women who have been telling me that christian men are hard to find. It’s like we’ve all gone underground, AWOL… completely MIA. At first I was angry… thinking of all those who refuse or will not walk the path of Christ. But then, slowly but surely, I had to examine my own heart. What does it take to be a Godly man? and do I have what it takes to be one? Who am I to speak of God taking men out of churches?

I’ve come to the following conclusions. I do see that men are missing from church. From my standpoint, I realize that I am not really welcoming to men into my inner circle and that the men in my cirle tend to be in touch with their feminine side. It has been brought to my attention that the actions I take and the activities I do are female-friendly. Never really saw it from that perspective, gotta remember to thank that brother. Guys are about sports, athletics, cars… and chasing women. So I’ve got about 1.5 out of 4. But if men are an unreached segment somehow, then perhaps it is worth looking into. Another pal said that perhaps men are missing because women are stepping into the leadership positions in the church which are traditionally male… but that’s a whole other can of worms.

Anyway, as for me, I’ve decided I need to learn how to become more manly. Not this stupid macho man stuff, but authentic-Jesus-manliness. That’s the only way I’m going to learn how to better serve my fellow man.

Dad, would you please make a man out of me? I haven’t the foggiest clue what that means, but I figure you know alot more about it than me. Help me to grow into the man I was made to be. Thank you for this wonderful, rainy, dreary… FRIDAY! I ask this in the name of the MAN, Jesus. Amen.

P.S. None of that metrosexual business either !!!

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Wednesday January 12, 2005

Thought of the day III

Love is striving to meet people where they are at…

Perfect love is reaching out to meet someone… even while knowing/assuming they will not reach back to you.

Dad, show me again, the way of the cross. I want to learn how to love people better. To learn to meet my brothers, my sisters, the righteous and the unrighteous where they are at. Thank you for loving me while I am still in sin and bringing me out of it. I know it may cost me blood and heartache because you paid both these things for me upon that cross. As you pay for my sins upon that cross, may I learn to take the sins from my fellow sinner and repay evil with good, as you have taught me. I want to be salt and light in this world as you have called us to be. May your good and perfect will be done in my life, each and everyday. In Jesus name, Amen.

== Random News ==

Rejoice! It is safe to actually buy your gal an article of clothing without causing a fight… (please don’t hurt me… :-P)

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Tuesday January 11, 2005

Thought of the day: (Vol Deux)

1) Knowledge does not always result in understanding.

2) Understanding does not always result in action.

3) Action does not always result in knowledge.

Break out of the cycle. Add God.

A) Fear (read: respect) God.

Dad, I need to learn the way of humility. Break the rebellion in my mind and heart, Lord. I know of nothing else but to wait as You work in me. Thank you for discipline, Father. In Jesus name, Amen.

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Monday January 10, 2005

Thought of the day:

Forgiveness comes before repentance.

Have a blessed week ~

== EDIT: In other news… ==

No more freak dancing!

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Tuesday January 4, 2005

== Hon’s Weekend In Review ==

New Years Eve/Night…

I got drunk, for the first time. And you know what? it sucked. I couldn’t even walk straight, or modulate my speaking volume. But then again, any logical being should know better than to chug a Long Island Ice Tea (4 ~ 5 shots of spirits)… right? And to add insult to injury, this supposedly logical person should know better than to eat dinner at 8 PM and then start drinking at 1 AM without any food in his stomach… right? well… evidently not. But it’s strange, I made friends, while someone I know, who got drunk… pissed off his friends. Where’s the justice in that? I got so drunk, two people had to practically carry my sodden butt home. He just got messed up, but could still walk. I actually got closer to these people… My logic and memory was completely intact, so I remembered everything very crispy and clearly, but I couldn’t touch my nose if you paid me and I was tripping over my own two feet. I was leaning on one of my buds and the other was a new friend I had made, while under the influence. Holding up a drunk stranger while wearing heels. I’m impressed… From what I’m told, I’m a very chatty drunk and I talked all the way home (30? 45 mins?). But I felt that all the secrets and private information I know about close friends is still securely locked away. Like the alcohol killed my body, but left my mind intact. Drunkeness is messed up. I don’t see what people see in it. Maybe because I can’t drown my troubles in alcohol. My mind is completely intact and I just make myself miserable the next morning. Hungover. That’s God’s discipline for you. ::WACK::

New Years Day…

Woke up at 10 AM after sleeping at 4 AM. Misery. I wanted to puke, but there was nothing to heave. Eating rice porridge was almost too much for me. Nausea. Headache. Read some C.S. Lewis, felt better. Got a random phone call from a friend who actually didn’t mean to call me. Invited myself to a stroll. Strolled on Kelly drive and got all introspective/retrospective. Drunkeness.Love.Forgiveness.Sacrifice.Friends.Women.Man.Brothers.Sisters.The Cross.Marriage.6th degree.Dependence.Self-control.Intentions.Choices.Birds.Father.Squeaky Wheel.Attraction.Anger.Wrath. Yeah, I think too much sometimes. I called up the friends I was with last night and apologized for my extremely loud and drunken state. Most of them were ok with it, or at least them seemed ok with it. My mind and spirit weren’t ok with it however, but that’s another story. Called people up for a last minute farewell dinner. Went back home, got dressed. Went out for dinner. Saw my buddy off to Georgia. Chilled with some other buds over at my place. Looked at old pics, ah nostalgia…

Jan 2nd…

Woke up at 8 AM. Picked people up and went to church. I happened to remember that I spoke with my new friend (while drunk on New Year’s Morn) and she was interested in GCC. So I picked her and another friend up and off we went. Got to listen to Yohan speak for the first time. (He’s not a pastor, but actually an intern staff) It was good to hear him talk about Jesus getting tempted and how it applies to my life. Hearing the word of God from other people is always a good thing. 🙂 After church, we had a snack/brunch at Mad Mex. 3 girls & 1 guy… all talking about relationships, guys, girls, friendship, love, attraction… It was good. The new friend was polite and generally agreeable to hang out with, very patient even when you give a couple mental jabs for fun. Went back home expecting to curl up to a book, ended getting invited out again, this time with 4 girls & 1 guy. Relaxed, drank some… tea! Chatted some and also took pictures. I hope some of the shots come out, the colors & compositions felt very nice. Found out I have a real blind spot with one of my friends and some other interesting stuff. Yea, I’m very emotional immature. So the logic side works just fine, but the emotional side needs some work. That’s not surprising, my friends always told me my bluntness/callousness would get me in trouble someday. Well, someday has come. Time to grow again. Thanks for telling me~

Dad, it would seem I’m not really starting off the New Year to a very great start. But still I’m definitely feeling your guidance and love in my life. I’m walking in Your grace and no matter how messed up things seem, I can always trust in you and leave those heavy burdens behind. All I’ve got to do is pick up my cross and follow you. My cross is so much lighter than all those other things. Help me to be more thankful and learn to rejoice & cry with my friends better. I’m definitely lacking, but cold-hearted, not quite. Thank you for your work in my life. I pray you will continue to beat the living heck out of me, cuz I think I learn pretty well that way. Maybe eventually I’ll learn to listen to your whispers, but until then, discipline it will have to be. Lead on, Lord. I ask this in the great shepherd’s name, Jesus. Amen.

Words of a Christian ( Knight: Serving the King – Part III )
Currently in progress…………     — 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 (NIV) —

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I stole this from her. Figured I’d share the pain!

Let’s all memorize Psalm 37!  There are 40 verses, so memorize one verse each day and we’ll have the chapter memorized by Feb. 14!   Each verse is on average 15 words, so it’s not too much!  What’s the reward?  Having The Word engraved in your heart~! (and I’ll be your Valentine.  jk )  Let me know how you’re doing in the next few weeks and you can keep me accountable too.  If you can’t do all 40 verses, just choose your favorite few and memorize them!    I suggest 3-9, 18-24, 27-34, and/or 37-40. 

Alright, Happy Memorizing & Meditating!

   1 Do not fret because of evil men
    or be envious of those who do wrong;
    2 for like the grass, they will soon wither,
    like green plants they will soon die away.

    3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
    dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
    4 Delight yourself in the LORD
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

    5 Commit your way to the LORD ;
     trust in him and he will do this:
    6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
    the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.    

    7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
    do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
    when they carry out their wicked schemes.
    8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
     do not fret-it leads only to evil.

    9 For evil men will be cut off,
    but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.
    10 A little while, and the wicked will be no more;
    though you look for them, they will not be found.
   
    11 But the meek will inherit the land
      and enjoy great peace.  
    12 The wicked plot against the righteous
    and gnash their teeth at them;
   
    13 but the Lord laughs at the wicked,
    for he knows their day is coming.
    14 The wicked draw the sword and bend the bow
    to bring down the poor and needy,
    to slay those whose ways are upright.

    15 But their swords will pierce their own hearts,
    and their bows will be broken.
    16 Better the little that the righteous have
    than the wealth of many wicked;

    17 for the power of the wicked will be broken,
    but the LORD upholds the righteous.    
    18 The days of the blameless are known to the LORD ,
    and their inheritance will endure forever.
   
    19 In times of disaster they will not wither;
    in days of famine they will enjoy plenty.
    20 But the wicked will perish:
    The LORD’s enemies will be like the beauty of the fields,
    they will vanish-vanish like smoke.

    21 The wicked borrow and do not repay,
    but the righteous give generously;
    22 those the LORD blesses will inherit the land,
    but those he curses will be cut off.

    23 If the LORD delights in a man’s way,
    he makes his steps firm;
    24 though he stumble, he will not fall,
    for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

    25 I was young and now I am old,
    yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
    or their children begging bread.
    26 They are always generous and lend freely;
    their children will be blessed.    
   
    27 Turn from evil and do good;
    then you will dwell in the land forever.
    28 For the LORD loves the just
    and will not forsake his faithful ones.
       They will be protected forever,
    but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off;

    29 the righteous will inherit the land
    and dwell in it forever.
    30 The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom,
   and his tongue speaks what is just.
   
    31 The law of his God is in his heart;
    his feet do not slip.
    32 The wicked lie in wait for the righteous,
    seeking their very lives;
   
    33 but the LORD will not leave them in their power
    or let them be condemned when brought to trial.    
    34 Wait for the LORD and keep his way.
    He will exalt you to inherit the land;
    when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.

     35 I have seen a wicked and ruthless man
    flourishing like a green tree in its native soil,
    36 but he soon passed away and was no more;
    though I looked for him, he could not be found.

    37 Consider the blameless, observe the upright;
    there is a future for the man of peace.
    38 But all sinners will be destroyed;
    the future of the wicked will be cut off.

    39 The salvation of the righteous comes from the LORD ;
     he is their stronghold in time of trouble.
    40 The LORD helps them and delivers them;
    he delivers them from the wicked and saves them,
    because they take refuge in him.

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Friday December 31, 2004

Actions of a Christian ( Knight: Serving the King – Part II )

     And the word of the LORD came again to Zechariah:  “This is what the LORD Almighty says: ‘Administer true justice; show mercy and compassion to one another. Do not oppress the widow or the fatherless, the alien or the poor. In your hearts do not think evil of each other.’

     “But they refused to pay attention; stubbornly they turned their backs and stopped up their ears.  They made their hearts as hard as flint and would not listen to the law or to the words that the LORD Almighty had sent by his Spirit through the earlier prophets. So the LORD Almighty was very angry.

     ” ‘When I called, they did not listen; so when they called, I would not listen,’ says the LORD Almighty.  ‘I scattered them with a whirlwind among all the nations, where they were strangers. The land was left so desolate behind them that no one could come or go. This is how they made the pleasant land desolate.’ ”

— Zechariah 7:8-14 (NIV) —

Notice, the word of God came to Zechariah first. If the people of God are not immersed in the word of God, is it reasonable to expect to hear God? If I am seeking enlightenment, I’d expect lots of meditation. If I am seeking meaning, I would be studying philosophy. If I am seeking fun, I’d expect to be found in a club or at a bar. If I am seeking fellowship, I’d be with my friends and family. So if I want to hear God and follow His will, where should I be? (Don’t you just love sarcasm? ;-))

When the meaning of God’s word becomes clear, this is what Zechariah hears from God. “Administer true justice” !!! When I read this, I have an idea of courts and judges… cruel & unusual punishment… social justice… but how the heck does someone give TRUE justice? And this doesn’t come as a nice suggestion, it comes over as a command. God’s not playing around with you. He’s asking for obediance.

He even clarifies this idea of “true justice” for us: “show mercy and compassion to one another. Do not oppress the widow or the fatherless, the alien or the poor. In your hearts do not think evil of each other.” So no mistake about it, He’s talking about how we treat each other, fellow human beings.

1st, mercy. Mercy is very similiar to forgiveness. We are asked to take something essentially evil from the other person and give them back something good. For any christian, it can be central define as a sinner who is an enemy of God, is given the gift of life (MERCY) from God in the form of the sacrifice of Christ upon the cross. As God has mercy upon us, so we are called to give mercy to others around us. When we are right and the other person is wrong, we are called to give up our “right”, take off the mantle of judgement, and come down to the level of the one who has wronged us. Without sin and a clear idea of right/wrong, mercy cannot exist.

2nd, compassion. Are we stirred to action by someone else’s needs? Compassion requires to know pain, to be acquainted with it and a sincere wish to heal it. Each one of us has had past hurts, past hardships, broken hearts, bouts of depression, times where we feel like we’ve hit rock bottom… but how many of us has taken this pain, taken it to God and asked why He has brought it to us? Why this thorn is in our side? Simply, we can easily reach those when we’ve walked in their shoes. Jesus shows us this. He knows of pain, of betrayal… and the path of the cross. He knows because he has walked it… and He doesn’t just command us to meet people’s needs. He met them himself and asks us to follow Him. God’s heart is for the broken… who wish to be fixed. Do we have God’s heart and desires in mind? and do we put our money where our mouths are? (or is it nothing more than lip service?)

3rd, oppression. Don’t do it to widows, fatherless, aliens or the poor. What does it mean to oppress? I looked it up on dictionary.com and got back 3 definitions: 1. To keep down by severe and unjust use of force or authority 2. To weigh heavily on AND 3. To overwhelm or crush. But here’s the interesting thing… poverty by itself can oppress people. If you don’t have much, you can feel limited in your options, like nothing you do can make a difference. What can we do to avoid oppressing people by our own inaction? I can’t claim that I am innocent of oppressing others. Far from it, I’ve passed by plenty of beggars, pretending I can’t see them. I can see the need to serve those who are powerless or defenseless. The question is, will I answer God’s call to serve? And I’m not serving someone who can help me, but the underdogs and supposed dregs of society. Single mothers and fathers, widows are slightly different now.. but how about immigrants? What kind of job can you get if you can’t speak english proficiently? And the homeless or families on wealfare? If we should not oppress them and God asks for us to love our neighbor… surely we have work to do in helping those least among us.

4th, do not think evil of each other. At first I thought, this meant evil intentions toward one another. To wish evil on something… like wishing someone would see God’s judgement/die/get sick/get hurt or something messed up like that. But it’s thinking evil OF each other. So I think it means to give the other person the benefit of the doubt… when someone is doing something that seems questionable (think about Jesus chilling with sinners) don’t automatically assume that they are doing evil. Cuz that’s messed up. It’s like judging someone before you’ve let them have their say. It’s like in the court of my own mind, you’re presumed guilty and have to prove yourself innocent. How messed up is that?

If we fail to hear God, then we are going to be a people of condemnation and apathy, taking advantage of the weak and defenseless and even our friends may as well be enemies. When God commands something, we can choose to obey or we can choose to rebel. God being the loving one that he is, chooses to speak truth even to those who choose to rebel. Verses 11-12 describe the rebellious.

“They refused to pay attention.” It’s not that we can’t hear God… it’s that we refuse to obey Him. How can you tell if you’re rebelling? It’s spelled out for us… I will turn my back on God. This is the exact opposite of repentance. I am right, God… and you are wrong. It’s like denial of a sort. Then “stopping up their ears”… after turning my back, I will then proceed to cut off the voice of God in my life, whatever it may happen to be. Whether I am drowning out whisper of the Spirit of God within or just plain old avoiding the words of God in the bible, stopping up your ears is like avoiding hearing something that you already know. I’ve never stopped up my ears to hearing lies, I can just discard them. But if I don’t want to hear truth or want to deny it and my own logic turns against me, I can only stop up my ears.

And then drowning out the Spirit. We have been recreated with a heart by God. Indwelling of the Holy Spirit. But those who don’t have this or rebel against these gifts from God. When we are no longer accepting and learning from God… instead of getting a new living heart… we receive “hearts as hard as flint” What good is a heart of stone? But if we are not moved by God and we choose to go the wrong way, what else can we expect? The wage of sin is death, but it never said how it would be paid. It seems like a piece of us will die… one day at a time… one decision at a time. A heart like a stone is definitely dead to me. Random thought, but if the heart is like flint, doesn’t it spark when it strikes other hard surfaces? So instead of sharpening iron against iron… we have sparks flying all over the place?

Last 2 symptoms of rebellion: Ignoring the words of God’s Law and the words of God’s Spirit. When I smack you with a verse from God’s word, nothing happens. When I see you doing wrong, and I tell you of God’s Spirit talking to me, nothing. Like it goes in one ear and out the other. Your heart will no longer respond. Your mind blocks out what it knows to be true. God is IGNORED. Giving the Big Man Upstairs the cold shoulder is a bad idea…

My least favorite part. But truth it is. WRATH. Refuse to sow good… and you will reap what you sow. God is slow to anger, but do you really wish to test His patience? God’s blood flows for you, but justice cries out. If you fail to accept something of grace and of mercy, what else can you expect? If God speaks to you… and you refuse to listen to Him. Then when you reach out to Him, God will not listen to your cry. There is a time comming, when the time of mercy and grace will be over… and people will be cut off from God forever. Don’t think otherwise, this is a limited time offer. I don’t know the expiration date, but why cut it close? It’s only your soul… and your eternity.

“scattered them with a whirlwind”… so nonchalant. This is not a God to be messed with. God truly gives and takes away. Who else is praise-worthy? almighty? just? loving? faithful? Bring on all the armies of the world… there’s no contest. God will win. It’s not a question. The question is… are you on God’s side? or do you just have a deathwish? God will grant it for you. Just hope you know what it is you are asking for.

The rebels will eventually be strangers in a strange land. I can see this even in myself. I’m like an alien in my own home. People who don’t even know who I am. I want to go home. I sick of the land of rebellion. Tired of being a sinner, tired of this messed up earth. Isn’t this what sin ultimately does? Breaks relationships. Causes pain and suffering… I don’t want to be a sinner any more. Don’t you want to come home too? Repent and turn to God… You will find glimpses of home of a place where everyone knows your name… and where you can be yourself. Forever. Keep rebelling and walk slowly down the path to death and destruction. God’s chances are limited. Grab a ticket home while you can. The price is free, but the ride home is … interesting. 🙂

The land where the rebels were… “so desolate behind them that no one could come or go” I have a hard time imagining it. But I think it is a barren wasteland. Maybe a place where a meteor struck… where dust blocks out the sun… and everything dies a slow death. A cursed place. When people refuse to be salt and light to the world… what can we expect? We are the caretakers of this place. When we fail this, the land will show this. The sin in the land will bring the world to it’s knees eventually. We cannot proceed at this pace forever. This world is in it’s death throes… can you see it? Just like Jesus dying upon that cross, slowly but surely, the end is comming. But the question is, when everything is revealed, like Jesus is revealed for who He was, will the resurrection and comming on the new world order upon this place take you by surprise? Instead of rebirth… anguish. Instead of mercy… judgement. Don’t get me wrong, we are all deserving of death. But when you examine life, you realize, that if heaven and hell do exist, nothing we do makes us worthy of heaven. The price is paid, but taking a hold of that ticket will take nothing less than our entire life.

Sri Lanka, Thailand, India, Somalia, Indonesia… These places remind me of desolation. A place where truly no one can come or go. I’m not saying that God’s judgement rests upon these places. But we do need to wake up to God’s call. Don’t be caught sleeping while life passes you by. God’s cause is worthy and the leader is unmistakable. But don’t take my word for it, find out for yourself. Prepare to bleed for a promised victory. Put your money where your mouth is. This bible study has come to life for me. I hope it brings life to you as well.

Dad, we know of the evil in this world. But we also know of your awesome goodness. And your thirst for justice. May it be filled on earth as it is in heaven. I pray for those who are suffering. This disaster came to those expecting a place of peace and vacation. It struck down the rich along with the poor. You give and you take away. May we learn to fear and respect You in all that we do, more than the powers of this world. Thank you for your protective hand upon your servants in these countries. I pray that people would see your glory, even through this horrible disaster. Let us never tire in loving our neighbor, because you never tire of loving us, no matter the circumstance. Let me to learn better the way of the cross… to bleed for those you love. Thank you for friends, for another year, for much growth and learning through both good and bad situations. For those lost, I pray that their souls may rest in your eternal peace. In the name of the innocent who died and threw open the door to home, Jesus. Amen.

<News>

Good News (Congrats Japan)

Witnessing News (1st Hand Accounts)  

Wretching News (Punch in the gut)  

Hopeful News (Bringing us together)  

Sick News (Stay away from NY and HI )

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<Random> Envelope, online romantic manga short </Random>

== EDIT ==

If you want to bleed.

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Monday December 27, 2004

God, was this really necessary? I want to be pissed at you, but you make it so hard to stay mad. I’m sure you’ve got a reason for this crap, but I don’t see it right now. So if it’s ok with you, I’m just going to stew a bit and wish today didn’t have to happen.

– Hon

P.S. Yea, my car broke down. Septa Route 44, here I come.

== EDIT ==

Septa wasn’t that bad… Kinda relaxing not to have to worry about crazy drivers. I’m going to be hitching a ride from a co-worker and helping her pay for gas until they figure out what’s up with the camry.

And a little something lighter to balance out all the darkness…

Forget about Santa… If you’re naughty, you’re gonna watch your presents go to the highest bidder on eBay… 

==EDIT 2==

In retrospect, God’s got impeccable timing. The one and only time I got a late shift for Monday and decided to take my car in for a checkup (aka tried to start it up early in the morning) and still have time to catch the bus and make it to work just in time. If God really hated my guts, my car would’ve died at the poconos. Then I would’ve really been screwed. Yes, God, I am definitely favored… even in troubles and misery… still favored. *sigh* Sorry, for … well, you know. Keep up the good work!

– Hon

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